5.31.2011

Saying Goodbye to Chloe

It's been about 2 weeks since we put Chloe down. I've been putting off writing about her, because it makes me sad. However, it is time. This might be weird for those of you who don't have pets, but I need to do this for myself.

Growing up, I never became attached to our pets. We had a couple dogs, usually from either the pound or people who were just getting rid of them. We didn't have time to train them, and they were usually kept outside. Most of them ran away because they were crazy. Needless to say, I didn't get that upset when they were gone. When people would talk about their pets or get emotional over them, I thought they were so weird. All I could think was "it's just an animal." I hated the movie Marley & Me. How funny that I turned into one of those "weirdos".

Just before Ben and I got married, we decided to get a puppy. I was excited to have a pet of my own, and when he surprised me with Nigel I was in love! Still to this day, I think he is the cutest dog that ever lived. For our first few months of marriage, we felt bad for the little guy because he was home all alone when we would go to work. We wanted to get another dog, but couldn't afford one that we wanted.

Then, one day at work, a client came in and asked if anyone wanted a girl pug for free. I was like, "say what?!!". She said that her sister-in-law couldn't take care of her anymore, and if they didn't find a home for her they'd take her to the pound. I immediately called Ben and asked if we could at least check her out. He said yes, and we met her the next day.

When the lady sat her down on the ground she was skin and bones. She was very timid around us, and to be honest I didn't think she was that cute. However, she was so pitiful looking that we decided to take her. I couldn't stand the thought of her being taken to the pound. When we got in the car, I held her in my lap because she was so scared of Nigel. He of course loved her, but she barked at him anytime he got close to her. I was beginning to regret taking her.

Once we were home, she wouldn't leave my side. I started warming up to her because she loved to cuddle with me, which is something Nigel had grown out of. Over the next few days I fell completely in love with her. She started to fatten up and her face got cuter and cuter by the day. What I loved most is she was so cuddly. She followed me everywhere and became my best friend. She warmed up to Nigel super fast and they were inseperable from then on.



Chloe was a part of our family. Anytime I was sad or having a rough day, she would sit by my side and give me this look as if to say "everything is going to be alright." She LOVED to lick feet... especially Ben's.


Anyone who met Chloe would always comment that she was a sweetheart. She loved everyone. She was also super protective! When we were in our apartment, I would take naps during the day with her. If there was any sound outside she would quickly sit up and assess the situation. If the noise continued, she'd run to the front door and bark to scare off the "intruder." She'd freak out when Ben came home with his motorcycle helmet on, but once she realized it was him she'd be so excited he was home.

Her under bite would crack us up! She always had the funniest faces. 



She would fall asleep in the most hilarious positions. I swear she was trying to copy the way we sleep sometimes..

When she got pregnant, I was so pissed at Nigel. Not only did I not want to deal with puppies, I didn't want Chloe to go through being prego and giving birth. However, she was pretty cheerful through her pregnancy up until the last few days. She got so HUGE!

When she gave birth to all 6 puppies, I think it was more traumatic for me than her! She was so brave and she knew exactly what to do. I couldn't believe how amazing her instincts were. She was an amazing mom.

Roughly 6 weeks after the puppies were born, Chloe got Parvo. I quickly became the week from Hell... literally. Parvo is a terrible virus that attacks the dog's intestines. They don't eat or drink, and eventually die of either dehydration or the intestines being torn apart. Treatment would have been in the thousands for us, and unfortunately, we didn't have the funds to pay for that. Not to mention, that even with the best treatment dogs only have a 50% survival rate. We quickly began home remedies, which failed us. Chloe had an extremely low immune system from just giving birth. After several opinions from Vets and friends who have dealt with Parvo, it was determined that Chloe had a very low and almost impossible chance of recovery. We struggled for 3 days with trying to make the decision to put her down. I had so much anxiety that I didn't eat... anything. I lost about 7 pounds in 5 days. After days and nights of taking care of her, constant prayer, and crying, I looked in my sweet puppy girl's face and she gave me that same look of "Everything is going to be alright." 

We decided to put her down that night, on Friday, April 29th. She was in extreme amounts of pain already, and to make her suffer through the last days of Parvo would have been inhumane. It was the hardest decision to make... It completely destroyed me, but I know it was the right one, and I do not regret it. Unfortunately, all of the puppies got the virus too. We were lucky enough to save 3 of them. We feel blessed to have this number, because normally all of them will die from it.

Here is a photo of one of the survivors... he is so stinkin' cute!!

The one thing that has been of comfort, is knowing that she and her babies are in a much better place. I told Ben that I picture her laying on a giant bed taking naps and playing with our children in Heaven. Before she died, I told her that I would see her soon. I said it would be a long time for me to wait to see her, but it would be short for her. I can't wait to see her again.

We love our Chloe so much. She is greatly missed in our family, but we know we will see her again. 

This is the last picture taken of her. She was skinny again from giving birth and loving her dress that Ben bought for her. I love her smile. 

So for now, it is Goodbye to my sweet, puppy girl Chloe. We'll see you again soon and I know that you're enjoying your home back in Heaven.

We love you Chloe Bowie!!!

5.20.2011

My poor, sweet, little Chloe...

Basically the last few days have been a living nightmare for us. Since Tuesday, my little Chloe hasn't been eating any food. She would occasionally drink a little water. She started becoming very lethargic, and when I saw little traces of blood on her towel in the cage, I got really worried. Chloe had a lot of the basic signs of Parvovirus in dogs. I made a vet appointment yesterday, and the test came back with a very strong positive. I was also told that the puppies most likely have it as well.

My poor, sweet, little Chloe has Parvo. It's a virus in puppies that eats away at their intestines, and the dog becomes dehydrated very quickly, and usually has a very swift death. The doctor advised me that even with treatment, there's only a 50/50 survival rate. The best options are either impatient or outpatient care. Both of which cost hundreds to thousands of dollars, which I wish we had, but don't. Many people say that if you can't afford vet bills, you shouldn't have a pet. I agree to that to some extent. If Ben had started his job at Go Daddy a little earlier, we would probably have the funds to pay for the outpatient care. Unfortunately, she caught this deadly virus at a time where we barely have enough money to pay off the monthly bills until our next paychecks. It's completely out of our hands at this point.

With our lack of funds to pay vet bills, and Chloe quickly deteriorating, we have been weighing the option of putting her down. This is my absolute last choice is there is even a hint of hope. However, the last thing I want is for her to suffer. A good friend of ours, Ruth, came over last night and gave us a helpful home remedy. She's has had Parvo puppies herself, and was able to nurse two of them back to health on her own.
Up until this morning she seemed to be doing okay... About 20 minutes ago, she threw everything up. Everything. She is dehydrating very fast. It's literally breaking my heart.

I know this may be weird for some, but please pray that my little Chloe and the puppies can pull through this. She's my sweet little girl, who always cuddles with me and I really don't want to lose her. I know it's out of my hands, but I know prayers help.

5.01.2011

Long time, no update...

Well, it's been a long time friends. A lot has changed for our little familia. I apologize for not being in touch... things have been busy. (I think I say that in every post haha!)


 I first want to say that I, personally, have been feeling very blessed, despite a few of our circumstances. I especially feel blessed to have such a wonderful husband. In about a month and a half we'll celebrate our one year anniversary. I can't believe time has gone by so fast. I can still vividly remember our wedding day. As I look at others who struggle in their relationships, it makes me feel grateful that I have a husband who is supportive, loving, and sensitive to me. Ben never hesitates to comfort me, and he's always making me laugh. He is so much a part of me, that I can hardly recall what my life was like without him in it. I'm grateful that he is responsible and has his priorities in line, but I'm mostly grateful for the love we share. Plus he's really hot. =)



 Recently, Ben quit his job at Gilbert PD. It was a really tough decision for him to make, but I'm glad he did. At first I was upset, because he didn't have another job in line yet. I was so scared that we wouldn't be able to pay our bills or get food. However, Ben didn't hesitate for a second to find little jobs to get us by and interview for several positions almost everyday. He landed a couple jobs, but chose an AMAZING one with Go Daddy.com! He'll be making the same as he was at Gilbert PD, except he'll actually enjoy it. I'm always in awe with the way Heavenly Father helps us through our trials. This potentially bad situation has turned into an amazing blessing. Holy moly, I love my husband.

One of our biggest changes has been that we've recently moved in with my parents. After a lot of thought, we decided to leave our dinky little apartment to save up for a house. The apartment was too small for such a high price and with the dogs, it just wasn't a smart idea to stay. The transition has been rough, but it'll be super nice to see that money pile up. I can't wait to get a house! We'll finally have space to move around in, and I GET TO DECORATE! Hopefully, we'll only have to be with my parents for a couple more months.

Our final big announcement is that Chloe had her puppies! They're 4 weeks old and so dang cute! We can tell Chloe is pretty miserable since she's constantly nursing, but luckily they'll be weened in a couple weeks and we can sell them. (If you're interested you can see the info on Ben's Facebook page.)

Chloe nursing... Nigel is so weird. =)

Gaaah! They're so cute I can't stand it!

So, that's pretty much what's happened these last couple months for the Bowman's. We're really excited for summer and have a couple vacations in the works. I'll try to keep you updated on our lives. 
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